This isn’t a polished breakdown of love and spirituality—it’s real life. Right now. February 24, 2025. My relationship is over, and I know why… frequency mismatch. Kundalini changes everything, and when your energy shifts, not everyone shifts with you. It sucks. It’s hard. And I want to talk about it because maybe you’ve been at this point in your journey—or you will be someday.

It isn’t good between us. It’s not good for me. I have a lot to figure out now—and fast.

Kundalini will strip away everything in your life that doesn’t serve you. I tried to explain. I tried to tell him. But in the end, maybe that was my mistake. I shouldn’t have gotten into a relationship—I knew my Kundalini was hard to navigate. It was so intense, so overwhelming, that I thought I needed a partner.

And yet, I thank him and love him immensely. He taught me so much. He showed me how to throw a football and play cornhole. He showed me love, care, and kindness. He took care of me and fed me when I couldn’t feed myself. For everything he did for me, I’m grateful. He did more for me than any person has ever done and probably taught me more than anyone ever did either.

I stand by what I’ve always told him—he is a good person with unhealed wounds. I do not want to slam him or put him down. just don’t think he’s ready to address what holds him back, and that’s totally okay—we are all on our own individual journeys. Every time I said that to him, it hurt him. I never wanted to hurt him. I was never saying anything to hurt him but that is how he received it. I just wanted to show him how beautiful life could be when you step outside the prison of your own mind. It isn't very easy.

Maybe someday he’ll get it. Maybe someday I’ll get it. I just know I’m not in charge, and the signs are everywhere.

I know there were hard times too, and maybe it will take me a while to fully understand everything that happened. But I’ve been notoriously single my whole life, and honestly, I don’t think I was ever meant to be in a relationship. I think I was always meant to awaken and have a journey.

At least now I do.

I'm Authentic Courtney - I've had an interesting life. I am a former Realtor, Broker, Cocktail Waitress, Biker, and Las Vegas escort until a spiritual awakening changed everything. Now 2.5 years into RV living, I'm navigating the space between who I was and who I'm becoming. I'm documenting my transformation journey - facing shadows, breaking barriers, and building a new life. My experiences now flow into wearable art and storytelling. Find my photos, rocks, tshirts and more in my shop. shop.authenticcourtney.com/ Let's explore what happens when you stop running and start rebuilding. Real stories. Real transformation. Real me.


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